When You Think You Know ~ Apparently You Don't Know

...*BUMMER*...

I just got a few bad news a while ago (about 10 minutes). Therefore, it kinda affects me somehow. When I think I just wanna pass the day peacefully, all of a sudden that feeling has been taken away - not sure for how long though.

the few bad news :

1. I just found out that my 2 friends who're going to visit me in China - Guangzhou had canceled everything due to they're having their own problems. Mostly they're busy and college-related things.

I mean I'm not mad, I'm more like sad cuz I'd been waiting for them for long and I'd been planning things. I believe there's always next time but at the moment I just keep feeling bad about it. Or maybe I feel bad due to the other bad news.

2. The office guy on the 5/F told me that the reason why I couldn't connect the internet to my laptop is because my Toshiba laptop have problems. I have to admit my Toshiba has been very strong all these 3 years, I put it through shits and there's a virus (trojan) that I had cleaned or so I thought. Though I have bought the new hard drive and it works wonder up until now (except the internet thing), I just can't believe when that office guy told me that my Toshiba still has problems.

He said the internet cable works with my MacBook. Therefore, the problem must be my Toshiba. I have to say that it hurts me when he said that because I always love my stuff - each thing that I have, I love them all. I use them, protect them, clean them, treating them as my babies, but I think sometimes my efforts just ain't enough.

3. I think I have to call the computer-expertise guy, calling him is not a problem. But I'm scared if he couldn't solve my Toshiba's problems. I'm scared if he's gonna say things that I don't wanna hear. Adding to the internship tomorrow, I think I've had enough right now.

The title says it all...

Does everyone honestly think that they know everything about their stuff ?

But what if suddenly they found out the things about their stuff that they didn't know before ?

Well, it just happened to me and let me tell you that it's not a very nice thing to experience.

For me, finding out the truth is kinda hard enough but overcoming those bitter truths is really a different thing, it's more difficult - more overwhelming. I always hate being useless and I'm feeling it at the moment.

...I'm typing all those above with the help of a song...

"Sometimes love just ain't enough" by Stefanie Sun

thank you

Hope I could feel better tomorrow