If That Wasn't A Dream

Hey ~ I just woke up 20 minutes ago, then I was doing my daily basis activities [checking my Facebook & Friendster]. After that, I read my friend's blog "taopriestess.blogspot.com", it was interesting ~ all the complaints + mocking, made me laugh. I need a few good laughs.

When I woke up, there's 1 particular dream that I remembered. I'm getting worse in my dream-skills, I used to be able to recall every single bit, now I can only recall a few things, but I'm still glad even I only can recall a few things, they are the things that matter the most.

I had a dream that I was doing my homework, I was surrounded by my family and yep...my Daddy was there, he's next to me. You can't possibly imagine what it feels like to be able to sit next to him[again], I mean I will never be able to sit next to him because he's already dead. Well, this is the truth and I know the truth sucks, but I just have to accept that.

When I was doing my homework, my Dad was speaking to my two elder brothers in Cao Zhou Hua [I'm sorry, I don't think I spell the language properly]. And then, being ME, I just can't stand people talking about me [bad or good], in front of me without me knowing exactly what they're talking about ~ I think I have the rights to know, clearly I was surrounded by them, when they're talking and though I only could listen to that language a bit, I knew my name was mentioned.

Then I said "Dad, if you have something to say to me, just say it and don't talk about it to other people, OK?" ~ Curiously enough, my eldest brother answered "Daddy said that you're a good boy, smart, and diligent. We are so proud of you!" ~ and being ME in the dream, I replied "I know, right ?" Everybody in my dream was laughing, pretending that they didn't hear me, but I just kept doing my homework and smiling proudly.

If that conversation was real, if my Dad was alive, if that wasn't a dream, I would never answered like that because I have [and I had] learnt a lot this recent year. I will totally answer "I'm doing this because I want to make you guys proud of me. Especially... *10 seconds gap* I want to make you proud of me, Daddy."

Can I say "better late than never" right now ?