What The...?!

Supaya gak smua org [yg gak penting] bisa baca, jd kali ini saya pake bahasa tanah airku indonesia. Saya ya mau ngmong2 beberapa hal yg penting aja lah. Here we go
1. saya sudah selesai bikin 2 thesis : management + finance ~ gmn pun jg hasilnya saya tetap grateful cuz I've managed to finished them - I pulled off a 1 nighter
2. saya pindah [again... i know] ke Clifford Estate - and bakal stay d GZ smp bln maret. Why ??
* graduation ceremony saya itu bln March
* saya gak suka tgl di indo - drpd di indo gak jelas mau apa / disuruh2 gak jelas jg, mending stay di GZ jd saya bs have fun + skaligus ke HK + kerja tour guide part time
* kl saya plg indo, saya ga bs dpt student visa + harus bayar 2,5 jt buat fiskal pas ke Chn on March, mending saya beli Ray-Ban Wayfarer.
* lagian ud mau back for good - jd for the last time - i want to enjoy everything to the last bit
3. saya lg di HK -- and td paman n bibi nanya kapan saya lulus - waktu saya ksh tau + saya sebutkan alasan krn saya tetap di GZ smp bln maret - mereka yg bertanya2 knp ?? And saya menjawab sehalus mungkin... rasany se agak badmood - krn ya - ini decision saya + saya tau apa yg baik buat saya - [remember the China incident and where it got me into ??]
4. paman n bibi saya se gak nge-judge, cm mereka bertanya2 knp gak di indo aja urus2 amrik ny + knp mau stay 6 bln - sedangkan bln 10 ud lulus - saya badmood krn jd agak ngerasa guilty for letting myself enjoying everything. Tp i know i have the right reasons ! jd saya bkn badmood sm paman n bibi saya - saya cm badmood sm diri sndiri...terkesan bahwa saya a bit guilty ~ again kyk melibatkan soal money... or more like -- money spree.
5. ntar mlm / besok mlm mau makan Tony Roma's sm Motherfucking Princess + Bawel di HK. Too bad Queen Bitch can't come with us.
6. Yup, that's right !! Motherfucking Princess lg di HK - sm her classmates - jd saya + Bawel visit her in HK --- isn't it AWESOME ?? ud 1 thn 3 bln gak ketemu [bener kan cinta ??]
7. Mini Mean ud plg ke kampung halaman nya --- ~ sedih lho -- Rafflesian terpisah2.

Itulah hal2 penting yg saya mau sebutkan and telah saya sebutkan, gara2 agak badmood gini, jd pgn mengepulkan asap rokok + menambah global warming ~ salahkan nicotine ya - jgn salahkan saya [thx to Dr. C for the quotes] hahahahaha - ini bagai escape way for me, to be honest aja.

PS: di HK hr ini lg hujan + kykny sih bakal badai...

UP

Today is Saturday and unfortunately I still have to work until 12 pm ~ extremely exhausting and trust me, I mean it. I had a chat with Queen Bitch 2 hours ealier, she said that we might have to cancel the appointment for watching G.I. Joe this afternoon, everyone was still sleepy. I had no argument with that because I was very tired myself and ready to get into deep slumber if anybody brought me a pillow.

Finally after a while ~ the clock showed exactly 12 pm and though I had to wait for at least 20 minutes, I decided to go home with my best friend [whom I think should get a new nickname in my blog]. While inside the elevator, the thought of watching -UP- crossed my mind and I knew I had to watch it today [this afternoon] no matter what, part of it because I believed nobody would be interested enough to watch that latest animated movie by Pixar, except Young Majesty and The Motherfucking Princess of course.

And yeah... UP has only been in cinema in GZ since 4th of August, I know it's really late but it's better than a no-show. The main reason I wanted to watch UP was because the "Story of a Dying Girl's last wish" ~ and I knew that UP was certainly gonna be amazing. The other reason was the fact that UP was also shown in 3D at the cinemas and yes it's my first time watching a 3D animated movie. Most people probably do not know about this, but being able to watch movies in IMAX theater is one of my dreams. Well, I consider watching this 3D animated movie UP as a way for me be to one step closer to my dreams.

Truth be told, I didn't expect to be "that" astonished by this movie, but obviously UP has succeeded way beyond my expectations. The opening scene was just heart-wrenching and I think that opening scene could only be rivaled by WALL-E's memory loss. And the very thing I love about UP during and after the time I was watching it is -> Russell [a wilderness explorer] that chubby boy who's trying to earn his final merit badge for "Assisting the Elderly" ~ Russell is just freakin' hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing when:

- Russell properly introduced himself to Mr. Fredricksen by reading his manual for three times

- Russell accidentally threw his GPS out of the window and said "Oops..."

- Russell was tired and complaining and being dragged by the house [face down in the dirt]

- Pretty much everything that relates to Russell the wilderness explorer

I feel that I can relate to Russell in many ways and I think we have a lot in commons. I'm not only talking about the fact we're both chubby but also Russell's innocence plus his other traits that I seem to possess once upon a time. By far, Russell is my favorite PIXAR's character besides EVE. Watching Russell in UP has given me a lot of thoughts about myself regarding "what could have been" ~ don't worry I won't start fussing about my -ultimate drama of all time- in this post :P

I really enjoyed watching UP but I have to say that I was a bit annoyed when I was told by the ticket-center in TeeMall that I needed to go to the Grandview Mall instead, to be able watch UP in 3D format. But at least, the long and exhausting path was worth every penny.

I really think that UP is another great masterpiece by PIXAR. I'm really grateful for being able to watch this movie and my utmost gratitude "Thank You" to PIXAR for making UP.

PS: Rest In Peace - Colby Curtin.

I've Not Only Won The Battle But Also The War

HaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHa *Evil Satanic Laugh*

I haven't been upset for a while and have been totally clueless of almost everything but again I'm not sad because I have been indulging myself in reading certain fan-fictions for this whole week, add that to the fact that I've been playing and carrying around my new BlackBerry Bold ~ yeah, I got a Bold for my B'day present, it's an early B'day present from my sisters and brother, totally in love with it ~ and feeling grateful. Then again, this certain fan-fictions have also been helping me to ease off my mind for whatever problems that have been shoved to my face and surprisingly this method has been working very well. I guess it's also a part of my ignorance personality, then again I don't really care about animosity that certain people have or had against me. As I have said over and over again, in this life, there's always a group of people who always love you and there will be a un-important person who hate you for no apparent reason.

Well, for whoever that hates me, I'll take that as a compliment because I personally think that kind of gesture [the hating thing] is a sign of extreme admiration ~ I'm sure there's only a thin red line between Love and Hate. I believe I have enough dramas in my life and I won't be so pleased to add another and while I'm trying to survive through all the dramas in my life, I'm really sure that I don't have the time to think about other people's business, that's also why I believe with all my mind that other people also have their own dramas in their lives. For that certain person who's able to hold grudges or hate me for reasons that I'll never understand, for me it's totally flattering, why? Simple! I'm sure that certain person also has his/her own dramas, and he/she's still thinking about me, hating me, holding grudges towards me, and yet I never really give a shit ~ isn't it just another drama-addition in his/her life? Personally for me, I'm totally flattered that he/she's still thinking about me, regardless of his/her thoughts being negative or positive, while he/she's still struggling living his/her own life. That's why I think it's called an individual's extreme admiration and I'm totally grateful if I could be a part of it.

Back to basics, the reason that I'm writing this topic at the moment is solely because I do know there's one certain person who hated me and held grudges towards me for reasons that I never know and to be honest, I have never bothered myself to even care. This certain case has been going on for the past 3 weeks and I seriously have never given a damn about it, I did give a thought about it for the first time but then I decided not to bother myself to think about his/her "whole-angry-hating-thing" to me, I think that particular he/she's just looking for my attention, to the extreme measure of course.

And miracle happens today or at least that miracle happens to me. That certain he/she asked for my time, asking whether I was busy or not, and being me ~ practicing the whole humble & noble thing ~ I certainly said that I wasn't busy. Then... *drum roll* that he/she started to cry while asking my forgiveness, that he/she also gave me reasons [that I really didn't understand] why he/she was angry to me and hated me for that particular of time. And then finally, that he/she decided to hug me asking for forgiveness while still crying and to appreciate that person, of course I accepted the hug and I said "It's OK, I have forgiven you."

Never seen the humble side of me? Well, I believe I wasn't entirely myself for that moment. But, let's forget the whole asking for forgiveness thing because I never really care that much, I mean I do forgive that certain person, but that won't lessen me from being more careful and more importantly, it won't lessen me for being who I am ~ because I still got that vindictive in me and still got that dirrty degree and if you want some more nasty ~ still got that freak in me [And yes, I'm quoting "Still Dirrty" by Christina Aguilera, great song! by the way].

To my conclusion, it's always what it's been: people can fuck with me I don't give a shit but not my Family [it goes both for my best friends and my blood-related family]. In the end, I'm still the champion ~ The Warrior Prince [my self-given nickname, it's kinda cheesy I know but I still love it, FYI: based on Xena Warrior Princess]. And I can't stop smiling happily because I know that I've not only won the battle but I've also won the WAR. I didn't even declare the war, it's that he/she who declared the war against me and clearly that he/she has LOST against me. To tell the truth, I didn't even bother to make any move.

PS: Why this certain person did what he/she did ~ is beyond my understanding.

You Know You Love Me

XoXo

17 More Days

Oh My Fucking God ~ that's like my first expression in regards to my coming B'day. I'm so scared of coming into age, the whole -I'm getting older- thing is totally screwing my moral senses [if I had any]. I don't exactly know what to say or how to behave, yet it's screwing up my mind. Even in these days I feel that I have been very very mellow, more than I usually have. Because I feel that or at least I think I feel that everything has begun to be too much to handle. Believe me, it's not about I can't handle anything because I totally can but it's just sometimes I wish that GOD didn't trust me that much.

I even keep re-thinking almost everything that I have done in the past, whether I regret them or not. And I thought about almost everything, from happiness to love to sorrow to grief and to anything that relates to my life ~ the life that I have been living. If there's one thing or two that I've learnt from the life that I have been living and particularly since the "China incident" ~ those things are:

1. Giving up doesn't always mean that I am weak, sometimes it means that I am strong enough to let go.

2. I believe that part of loving is learning to let go.

And those two things that I've learnt relate to all my aspects of life. Actually, it really scares me to death how I think that I have been more mature these past years because "mature" was never my thing ~ I know I'm mature and I have always been mature if it requires me to do so, but I have never wanted to be recognized as a "mature person" because I believe from that point people that we love that matter to us, will start giving us false beliefs. I don't think it's wrong for them to have those beliefs because in truth they just really care and more importantly LOVE who we are or who we might have become.

Because if there's anything that I've learned about growing up, it never was a "natural" thing, for me personally, it's a pressure ~ a heartbreaking process, because after all this time, I believe that I have never grown to be"mature" naturally, the situation and condition require me to do so and it's foolish of me because I didn't rebel, I just acted the way they wanted me to. And my question is "is this part of growing up?" ~ because if it really is, I don't want to be any part of it, yet here I am being trapped in very same situation that I've been babbling about. The next question to myself is "can I avoid all of this?"

Yes, I'm going to get a year older in 17 days and I'm grateful that I'm still alive but can't a B'day be a sign of Celebration instead of Growing Up? I know it's a celebration, what I mean is that I want it to be a "Celebration With No Strings Attached" ~ and yes I do feel the selfishness in that sentence. I really can't help it, selfish has always been a part of who I am. Actually, it's more of a "won't" than "can't" if you know what I'm saying.

I'm gonna be honest and I know I have to be because this blog of mine is where I pour everything inside of my mind and my heart. These past months, it seems to me that everything is too good to be true and I fear [not scared] of the sacrifices that I have to make later on, assuming there will be. Last time, it cost me my family - my father. I'm not saying I blame myself for his death, clearly not, but there's a part of me that always wonders whether I should've known better.

And yet here I'm wanting to stop myself from blabbering. I just wonder if this a part of my own aging process or I simply just worry too much. Whatever the result might be, I hope it's gonna be a positive impact for me, everyone, and everything else that have been going in my life.

PS: I'm gonna take a shower now ~ until then ~ xoxo

Baby Blue Eyes

Even in my life I have never expected this kind of thing, but apparently it did happen. It was a heartbreaking Tuesday, supposed to be last 4 weeks ago. I called it heartbreaking because for the second time I got 70 for my papers, can't blame anyone though solely because I don't think I have been trying hard enough, don't worry I've gotten over it [the whole low-grade thing].

For my own self-defense, studying hasn't been in my mind lately, something's bugging me and I dunno what or maybe I'm just excusing myself for being a lazy-halfwit. Yet here I am writing about the "thing" and trust me, it's more interesting for me to listen then share it. That thing was a compliment [yay me!]. French Yeye said something about keep trying and pushing the study and all. I didn't care because at the time getting 70 twice was bad enough. But then the compliment got interesting...

Yeye : You all blue today

Me : (I was wearing blue polo shirt + blue jeans)... as blue as my 70s (meant for sarcasm)

Yeye : You just have to keep trying. And you look good with blue.

Me : Thanks

Yeye : You are Mr. Blue Guy

Yeye : all these blues are good on you. You just need blue eyes!

Yeye : *pointing his own blue eyes*.... And you can have these blue eyes, buy contact lens.

Yeye said what??? By far that's the best compliment from him since 1 year ago. I guess people could never be wrong and after all I do look white, I guess it's because I do have -dutch- in my blood. It doesn't really matter, does it? All I need is a pair of baby blue eyes.

Anybody's willing for donor? Because I can totally use a pair of real baby blue eyeballs.

Here Comes The Showdown

Today is GREAT!! I mean, it's like amazingly GREAT and I'm not trying to exaggerate it but if I sounded like that, then so be it.

Since yesterday, all of us have been discussing on the latest issues of Dorota, for anyone who doesn't know who Dorota is, I'm here to say that Dorota is the same delusional person that I've typed about in my previous blogs. All I know there's gonna be a Showdown in school today. Therefore, after lunch, I decided to go home first because I couldn't be in the scene, I know right!! It's too bad cuz If I were there I could do some re-takes. *Evil Grin*

So then, when Dorota came into have lunch, Bawel has decided to put his foot down [the phrase is supposed to be used this way ~ I'm not really sure though]. But I have to tell you first that the quotes that I'm gonna type below are really less-detailed. But no worries, I'm gonna write some more blogs about it if I could get more details information later on.

Here it goes...

Bawel : Sit Down!!...

Bawel : Why are you text messaging me?...Why?...

Bawel : What makes you think I'm interested in you?

Bawel : You know what, you should really see a doctor!!

Bawel : You're insane... you're delusional

Bawel : And about Young Majesty...

Bawel : You are the one who take him in

Bawel : And yet, you're talking about him behind him

Bawel : C'mon...!! He's not insane!!

Bawel : You are insane!.... and you, don't try to mess up our relationship...

Bawel : It's not gonna happen!!

Bawel : You can go, you can get away... I don't give a damn about it, because you're not IMPORTANT!!

*Laughing Out Loud* Hhahahahahha!! Mulut-mu itu Harimau-mu !! Dorota...Dorota.... you should have known not to mess up with me or my best friends, because somehow & someday... your own words would come back to bite you on your ass!! And here I am, yet again proving to you that I'm the -RIGHT- one. FYI ~ I always have been. :P

The statement of "You're Not Important!!" always cracks me up. Personally, it's getting interesting when Bawel started to mention my name. To be honest, I'm always grateful for everyone who stands up for me and sticking up for me. I thank you for that, especially to Bawel. But I'm here writing about this not only because I want to remind myself of this hilarious memory 5 years later [or like forever] but I also want everyone to know that the reason I didn't defend myself solely because Dorota's accusations of me have never affected me at all. That's why I don't feel neccessary to defend myself. But -Special Thank You- to Bawel because he did an AMAZING job defending me, Thank You.

And I have said over and over again, being -ME- -Myself- and -I-, and I do believe it goes the same for everyone else. Being ourselves, being a friend, and especially a human being who lives to survive in this cruel world, we will always gather pros n cons. Some people might like us and some other people might not like us. If some people have offended us behind our back or in this bittersweet world we call it "Backstabbing" ~ what's important is to overcome those "backstabbings" with a smile, dignity, and be proud to just walk forward to our bright futures, do not take it personally instead.

Well...there's always a 2nd option though ~ to be more exact : Be A -Byotch- and take the matters into our own hands and never forget to fuck those "backstabbing bitches" front and back double dose. But of course I don't mean "fuck" literally in common sense.

Just like what people said, "Revenge is a dish best served cold"

PS : Who's hungry...??

You Know You Love Me ~ XoXo ~

-Young Majesty-

Happy Valentine's Day 2009

In my time zone ~ it's only gonna take 7 more hours to Valentine's Day. In celebration of V's day, I'd like to make some quotes revolve around the LOVE itself.

"Some of the greater things in life are unseen. That's why we close our eyes when we kiss, dream, and cry"

"If I have to choose between loving you and breathing. I would use my last dying breath to say ~I Love You~"

"Why do they call it -Heart Break- when I feel every part of my body is broken ?"

"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop"

" I love you not because what you are but for what I am when I am with you"

"Love can never give too much but those of us who love can give in too much"

"If you love me let me know but if you don't please gently let me go"

"Love is not blind. It sees more and not less, but because it sees more it is willing to see less"

"They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices but I'd rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be loved by you"

"Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again"

I hope everyone can learn a few things from those quotes I've typed above. But most importantly, I want everyone to know and to believe that if we have L.O.V.E we don't need anything else but If we don't have it [the L.O.V.E], everything else that we have does not even matter.

Happy Valentine's Day 2009 ~ Everyone

XoXo

My Life Would Suck Without ~

I honestly don't really know what to write except that these days I have nothing interesting in my life, pretty much decent things that quite acceptable. I can't really sleep now, not only because I'm doing my iTunes but also playing my RRO [Rebirth Ragnarok Online], got introduced last 2 weeks by A-Kang, it's a HELL of FUN playing RO again, how I miss 'em. Thank You, Kang !!

I'm here promoting everyone to play RRO too, just like me, I'm officially addicted [again]. It's a private server, so it's free of charge, have fun playin'. Anyway, I'm on my first day of CNY [Chinese New Year] Holidays now. This would be the 2nd time I won't be home celebrating the Chinese Spring Festival with my friends and family. It doesn't really bother me though because I made the right decisions based on:

1. My holidays are short [1 week]

2. I know in the year of 2009, most of my friends are busy graduating from university

3. I will be forced to face lots unnecessary problems at home

4. Those unnecessary problems aren't mine, they're just forcing 'em to me.

5. I got no HEART to go back home

Speaking of which, I don't really know how to spend my CNY in here [for the 2nd row], I might only have dinner with some friends, to me right now, my friends are much more reliable + trustworthy than some of my family members, as I've said over and over again "Too Many Disappointments".

But, I do miss 1 person and that is my [dead] Father ~ I still can't believe this is gonna be the 2nd time I won't say "Gong Xi Fa Cai / 恭喜发财" to my Daddy. Not to mention I won't get Red Pocket from my Dad for the 2nd time. To everyone whose parents are complete, be GRATEFUL & THANKFUL for that !!

Currently Listening To :

My Life Would Suck Without You ~ By : Kelly Clarkson

It's a really great new single by Kelly Clarkson after that miserable "Never Again". You guys should check it out.

I'm off now

XoXo

You Know You Love Me

Footnote : Have you guys realized that Queen B is back ?!

Bye Bye [2008] ~ Welcome [2009]

I know it's kinda late to make a blog for a New Year greeting, but I think it's the right time for to write something about it, as I've never written any of my blogs accordingly, I just write when I feel like it. Ok, let's begin...

2008 has passed [in my time] 2 days ago, and I never thought that I'd be glad to write it down. In particular, I don't have anything EXCITING for this year, more like HORRIBLE if I think about it. Bener2 banyak kejadian yg tidak terduga [ya beberapa lah maybe I'm just exaggerating], tp itu smua didn't last long which is very good, tp gak berarti hal tersebut HILANG begitu saja. But, of course there are still nice moments to remember.

I'm not gonna put it in alphabetical order:

- Masa -baru adjusting- karena my Dad just passed away.

- Queen Bitch -terpaksa- di transport ke Singapore for like 6 months or more, because some lame residence/passport regulation in Guangzhou. We didn't have a Leader/Sister/Family for those amounts of time.

- Mother Fucking Princess juga pindah ke SG krn she told her mom about what happened to Queen Bitch, jd Rafflesian berkurang lagi, apalg Queen Bitch ud terpaksa ke SG. DAMMIT!!

- Financial Down Turn ~ aku sampe bingung soal yg ini !! ~ 3 kali-an sampe ditanya my Mom "bisa ga kalo kuliah ny cuti bentar ?" <--- I'm like "What The Fuck?"

- Year of 2008 makin dekat dengan Year of 2009 ~ my Judgement Day of America !! [penentuan I'm gonna be -Dead or Alive-].

- XBoX 360 rusak karena Red Rings of Death !! <--- FUCK !! ~ I haven't got the time to fix it.

- Musti ngurus2 surat kuasa my Dad ~ ud lebih dr 5x bolak - balik KBRI, gara2 musti legalisir, not to mention, the amounts of money that I have spent for "legalizing" those damn papers. And to tell the truth, masih blom "finish completely".

- The first time on my birthday that my Dad couldn't even say "Happy Birthday" because he's dead already. Honestly, I'm mad/angry/pissed off because Dad left me [and my family] and now I'm even in the worse state. Can't even think about my "American Dream".

- RMB naik - turun !! pernah sampe 1RMB = 2000-an Rupiah, OMG !! It hurts me bad financially.

- I also realize that sometimes I was just fooling myself with this whole USA-thing. Again, my FEAR has taken the very best of me, I don't know what will happen to me if I can't go there.

- Feel that sometimes "family" can hurt ME [and you] the most. Then it just struck me that I always get disappointed by them even until I felt used to it.

- Semakin hari berlalu, my emptiness is getting bigger and darker, ready to consume me inside out.

Nice Memories [and I won't put it in order] :

* I met Rafflesian ~ a group of people that I feel I belong to, they always keep me "Down To Earth & Up To Heaven" whenever I feel I need to. Though 2007 has been very rough to me because of my Dad's death and financial breakdown, tapi karena ada Rafflesians I didn't feel that much worse for the whole year of 2008. Thank You from the bottom of my heart.

* I could celebrate Rafflesian' B'days with everyone that I love and I'm not afraid to call them "my friends" : Mini-Mean, Queen Bitch, [myself], Dr. C, Agent Bawel, Putri Kaca, Mbah Dukun. Even though, we couldn't celebrate Mother Fucking Princess' B'day + A-Kang, but I'm glad that I've come to know both of them.

* My -2008 Birthday Bash- ~ honestly, it was AMAZING, I couldn't stop being mesmerized and I was deeply touched. I could see the sincerity and the LOVE brighter [and all the positive things] that day and actually I was in tears [in my heart] because everyone remembered my B'day and they were willing to spend their precious time just to celebrate my Birthday. Never thought I could feel that HAPPINESS again. Thank You.

* Meet and get to know [even better] all of my GREAT Lecturers, Mbah Dukun is included of course.

* I got an internship in China Plaza and I passed the subject handsomely !! It's Hell of FUN.

* My Birthday -Chocolate Cheese- Cake : it was finger-licking good, but knowing that Rafflesians have put lots of efforts for my Birthday, it tasted even YUMMIER.

* My Birthday Presents : Birthday Card with everyone's wishes, iFish, Calvin Klein, Fubu, MacBook, Animal-Stuffed, Louis Vuitton Men's Wallet, and everything that relates to my birthday.

* My iPhone is 1 year old [11-11-2008].

* I got a new Silver iPod Nano Chromatic.

* I moved to a new [bigger & better] apartment and I found the perfect housemate.

* I often realized that [for reals] "friends" can turn into "family" both physically and mentally. Every time I was disappointed and struck down by own family, I could always find comfort in my "FRIENMILY"

* My mom liburan ke Guangzhou and Hongkong, jadi bisa spent time with her, walaupun she's not the perfect Mom, but I still love her because she's my Mother.

* My AMUSING & ENTERTAINING "Study Tours" ~ Philippines [Cebu & Manila], Hongkong, Macau, Hangzhou, and Shanghai. Loves it !!

* I got new friends and they're all very NICE - New Members of Rafflesians : Tukang Jayus + 1 Nice Girl ~ I haven't thought about appropriate nickname for her yet.

* Britney Spears is BACK to #1

* Queen Bitch is BACK and she decided to take Bachelor degree in Guangzhou. Our Rafflesians' leader has COME BACK !!

* I have graduated from my Diploma Degree [Business Administration]. I Fucking Did It !!

As I have said over and over again, everything has its own balance. Year of 2008 has been both BAD & GOOD for me and honestly, I'm grateful for all of it. Because I wouldn't feel AMAZINGLY happy If I didn't experience any of my sadness. At least, I know that everything happens for a reason [Cinta Laure Mode* ON].

And I know I can be such a Bitch or an Asshole, for that I sincerely apologize to everyone that I have offended both intentionally and unintentionally. This particular blog [Burn Book] of mine is my way to express all of my feelings and thoughts, if I hurt anyone's feeling I sincerely apologize.

For this coming year of 2009, I only have one dream and one set of goal. The goal is for me to graduate for my Bachelor Degree [Double Major: Management & Finance] and the dream is what it's always been ~ for me to be able to go to United States of America. Wish me Luck on the latter one.

Last but not least, I wanna Thank Everyone and Everything that have colored my life in the year of 2008. For without them, I wouldn't be who I am now and I believe that I am one step closer to the Person I will be in the Future. Thank You Everyone and Thank You Everything.

Merry Christmas 2008 & Happy New Year 2009

PS : * I was inspired by Dr. B to write this particular blog ~ Thank You*

After [more or less] 2 Years of Hard Work, Blood, Sweat, And Tears

I've finally graduated from Diploma Degree [Major : Business Administration]. And I am extremely intoxicated to be able to reach this point in my life, never thought that I could have it before. I'm happy and satisfied for it ~ not to mention, my graduation ceremony was held at Westin Hotel [1 of the Best 5 stars Hotels in China, Guangzhou]. 

Congratulations to myself & all of my friends that have graduated that day. We F-ing ROCK !!

PS : I wanna give my utmost gratitudes to Jesus Christ - My God, Savior, and my Manager of Life ~ Thank YOU. I also wanna thanks my family and friends, thank you for all your love and supports. None of this would've happened without you guys.

Delusional

I just found out 10 hours ago that people could be DELUSIONAL, yes with CAPITAL LETTERS. I know I could also be delusional at times, but it has never [ever] got to the point where I think "STUPID" to myself, or at least I think it never did. Fortunately, I wasn't the one who's being that DELUSIONAL. I know that I don't have any rights to write down this particular [real] story in my blog, but I still can write down my own shocking moment, can't I? ~ And I also want to justify the fact that I was really surprised at the time.

I am sorry to say that being DELUSIONAL is stupid, but then again -Being DELUSIONAL And Still Believing That You Are Not- is totally a different case of being STUPID.

And I just wanna say that...

"What Is That Thing Actually ?"

Happy Birthday Britney Spears

1. The Beginning Session. A Small Chocolate Cake [with the deepest love] With A Glass of Honey-Water. I made the honey-water on my own and I bought the small cake ~ cause I knew I was the only one who's gonna eat it and had a self-celebration for Britney's B'day. I lighted the candles, I chose Baby Blue because it's Britney Spears' favorite color and the other pink candle just to make it looked fancier.

2. The Eating Session. I prayed to GOD for like 10-15 minutes, I prayed for Britney Spears, all the positive things that I could think of. I made a wish for like 3 minutes, then I blew the candles. Obviously, I eagerly ate the B'day Cake and drank the whole glass of Honey-Water.

3. The Finishing Session. Well, the picture clearly shows everything. There's no need for any descriptions.

Happy Birthday Britney Jean Spears

Wish You All The Best

Wish You Love And Happiness Always

No Matter What

You'll Always Have My Love And Supports

Happy Birthday Britney Jean Spears

This Year Will Be Your Greatest Come-Back In The History

And I Know You're Gonna Make It

Love, Sincerity, Happiness, Hope, And Every Positive Things In The World

To The One And Only

I Love You

I Wish You The Merriest Happy Birthday

To The Legendary Britney Spears

FYI : I know I sound stupid [or crazy] but I always do this self-celebration for Britney Spears every year. I've been doing it for the last 9 years.

PS : It's already 2nd of December 2008 in my place right now, but because of the time zone difference, this specific blog is displayed on 1st of December 2008.

Quote of The Day

After I've made dinner ~ we watched movies: The Mummy, Underworld Evolution, Resident Evil Apocalypse, and Blade. When we're watching RE, it's already 11 PM something ~ everybody's stomach started to growl again, including me. Then I went to kitchen making the Supermie Goreng ~ I made 3 packs of Supermie Goreng ~ it's so good, it's been a long time since I had 'em. Thanks to Putri Kaca who gave them to me, Supermie Goreng is one of the many things about Indonesia that I'm truly proud of.

I made all of us a supper ~ only for Me, Mini-Mean, and new Rafflesian, I haven't come up with the nickname yet ~ any idea?

The Supermie Goreng that I've made were divided for three people [by me]. Then I put 'em in bowls, prepared the chopsticks, and carry it for Rafflesian. Mini-Mean and the still-un-named Rafflesian "THANK YOU" me. And then...

Mini-Mean : [innocently] What happened to you, cinta? You made us dinner and now you're making us Supermie for supper ~ Are you sick? Is it because your bone-sickness thing? What's wrong with you?

Young Majesty : [inside my head] *thank you so much*

First Time Cooking [And Might Be The Last Time]

1. Supposed-to-be PERKEDEL : by far this one is the most difficult dish among 3 dishes that I've made, at least it's difficult for me. I had no idea how to make it solid ~ so the result it's still kinda mushy. Not to mention, I put too much oil ~ but it did taste good. Rafflesian said it's good too. And though this is the first picture, it's the last dish that I made and I took a very long time.

2. Fried Broccoli with meatballs and sausage : I just came up with this idea, I didn't know how to explain. I just fried the broccoli and the rest of it, including oil, salt, and sugar. It's yummy and edible.

3. Scrambled Eggs with Meatballs and Sausages : yeah, yeah I know it's kinda similar, I just didn't put the broccoli. But it tasted different from the broccoli one, or maybe just a feeling. This dish's finished first by everyone and I guess we love it.

Rafflesian were confused ~ like totally confused because I call them in a sudden, that I was gonna make them a dinner, "Young Majesty Does Not Cook But Eat" ~ everybody knows it. I didn't know what happened, it's like the usual lazy Sunday and we haven't planned to hang out somewhere. Then the idea of me-cooking popped to me in my head.

It's really the first time for me to cook and I know those aren't great dishes, but I did try and put lots of efforts. It's made me realized the hardest thing about these dishes ~ the cooking itself. Though it's my first time and I didn't regret it [everyone said it's good and edible] I'm not sure I will cook again next time ~ I'm totally not a cooking-guy, I did realize it the first 5 minutes I was in the kitchen.

But I was having a great time. Therefore, I should say I had a great time inside the kitchen. Maybe if I could improve my cooking skills I'd cook again ~ first I have to learn from Queen Bitch [She's HOT and expert in cooking]. Though I'm very very sincere saying that I want to learn and improve, still ~ not within a thousand years.

PS : whatever happens in the kitchen, stays in the kitchen ~

Moving [And] Bitching [And] Recalling

I've moved to my new apartment 2 days ago and I have to say that it's totally AWESOME. It's been 1 year since I've been living in that "gubuk" [as what people call it] and now I'm free. I think that's kinda intoxicating for me, living in this new place because I so deserve an Award for "Berakit - rakit dahulu, berenang - renang kemudian".

While I was moving my stuffs to my new crib ~ feeling lazy N' crazy about 'em and it got me thinking about the fight that I had right after I got the deal for my new place. It was a week ago when I had a fall out with my eldest brother cuz of my new place ~ he was so dramatic about everything and he made me lost my temper ~ "the game is on" ~ then I went from Nice [to] Vice. Obviously, when I switch my Bitchy Mode [or when other people turn it on] - I'm always far from the term of "LOSE" ~ Yup !! I totally BITCH-ed him back and he [not literally] gave me the "White Flag" ~ [it was a flawless victory] ~ not to mention he's changing the subject because he was afraid to admit that he was a total "LOSER" this time. Yeah, this time I won't lose to anything.

What he did to me was forgivable but [of course] unforgettable, but when I was moving my stuffs and did everything in order to stay in my new place, I tried this new method that I proudly called "Recall The Good Ones" ~ I know it's kinda Lamey McLame but whatever. And I tried so hard [trust me, it's difficult] to recall all the nicest things that my eldest brother did for me and I put in my head [and heart] that my eldest brother is really a great big brother that I will always feel grateful for. And surprisingly, it works! I don't feel annoyed as much as I was before and more importantly I am not "PISSED OFF" anymore [not so much]. And I feel that I am happier because I don't hold any grudges. Well, if it works for me it totally works for everyone.

PS: Everyone should try that "Recall The Good Ones" ~~

Footnote:

1. I wanna thank GOD and my -Best Friends Rafflesian- for making it happened so smoothly ~ thinking and organizing it way bigger than I even dare to.

2. Last but not least, I wanna thank me for being ME.

From [was never] Perfect To Worse

What a night to start my assignment - my life was never PERFECT now it keeps gettin' WORSE and the funny thing is I didn't do it on purpose ~ I thought I was trying to help but apparently I was helping the wrong person.

So it started when I got a message from that "wrong person" ~ let's call him "son of a bitch". The son of a bitch messaged me that he needed my help ~ not that I ever wanted to help him. He said that he needed my help and anyone must not know about this "help" and he even said that it's because I'm close to my "particular friend" ~ in the end of the 1st message "mau apa nga kira2 elu nolongin gw?"

and I replied the 1st message like this :

"heh ? of course lah ~ if i could help i would - blom ditolong jgn thx dolo lar --- gw jd ga enak" <-- I thought I was doing my "particular friend" a favor - I seriously THOUGHT that, it was never about him, it's always about helping one of my best friend ~ and I guess I was so wrong [I'll get to that part]. And the second message that was written by Son of A Bitch : "tapi tolong, tolong.. even anyone shouldnt know about the favor im asking you.. you're a man of his word kan? gw pengen bunuh diri, kemaren usaha gw gagal pas gw lagi dicentro ngejatohin diri ditangga teguling2.. gimana dia sekarang? gw barusan udahan ama dia baru2 ini, kemarin ini hari kamis gw ribut besar ama dia, pas ditelfon gw kalap dan gw emosi sesaat yang amat teramat childish, gw delete dia dari fb & fs gw, dan gw bener2 menyesal sekali telah ngelakuin itu.. gwpusing.. gw musti gimana. gw asli pengen mati dari kemarin ini bawaannya mikir mulu nga henti.. udah 2hari belum tidur sampe detik ini.. gimana dia masih ada pegi2 bareng nga lu ama dia kemarin2 ini?gw mohon, jangan sampe siapapun tahu tentang hal yang kita bahas ini.. tolong banget.. thank you..oia ada baiknya itu fren rikues dari gw elu ignore aja daripada ada yang tau.. thanks.." Then I replied it from my perspective - from what I have seen, I won't show it here cuz it's not really necessary. Things got really intense from there - from asking how that "particular friend" of mine - to phone number - and I swear to GOD I didn't want to give son of a bitch my "particular friend"'s phone number ~ you can call me amateur but that "son of a bitch" has a very superb acting skill - I don't remember what he said [because there's a lot of it] but he did make me saying "So, you're asking for my "particular friend"'s phone number?" ~ and what an ASS !! he rejected at first - I should've known better - I was tricked [and here I thought I was the meanest and the most cunning person on the Planet Earth] - but then he's like whining about his "problems" and he kept sobbing and blabbering [I swear I thought I was gonna die listening to him] ~ and then he just like said it to me "would you mind to give the "particular friend"'s phone number?" and GOD what a FOOL I WAS !! ~ I FucKING FELL FOR IT !! I KNOW !! I KNOW !! I KNOW I was such a weakling !! How could I ever fall for that ?? I KNOW I was the one to blame ~ it's my FUCKING FAULT !! But I have made it clear with my "particular friend" that I have no ill-intentions and I thought I was doing "particular friend" a favor ~ and I guess I was wrong ~ and my action is biting me on the ass at the moment 1. I got myself a trouble 2. I think my "particular friend" is sad because of what I did 3. I heard that Queen Bitch is pissed off because of what I did 4. I haven't even started on my assignment yet 5. I got nobody to blame but me PS : ~ I should've asked my "particular friend" first before I gave son of a bitch the phone number - I am so SORRY ~ I swear I've told son of a bitch MANY TIMES that I didn't want to get involved in this problem but he kept dragging me - calling me - he has a way with persuasion that I have to admit that he's GREATER than me ~ I swear to GOD that I told him not to call me again MANY TIMES ~ I swear to GOD I was defending and helping my "particular friend" or I thought I was ~ I thought I was doing my friend a favor apparently I was digging my own grave ~ Compassion is something that I have to get rid of

I am so sorry for what I did and I'm apologizing to everyone who has been hurt because of what I did and I am aware that my actions have caused a lot of people ~ hurting them but I swear I have never had any ill-intentions to those everyone. I am sorry and even though I know I might be forgiven ~ this particular tragedy will never be forgotten no matter how hard I try ~ I just hope that myself and anyone who's reading this can learn from my mistake.