Growing Up ?! ~ Making Decisions ?? & Dealing With 'Em ??

I just finished watching the 3rd season premiere of Ugly Betty "The Manhattan Project" 3 hours ago. And when I heard + saw Betty's Dad [Ignacio] said that growing up is not about making the right decisions, it's about dealing with the decisions that we've made. Those sentences just struck me and I couldn't even sleep. One of the reasons why I'm typing my goddamn mind at the moment.

Is it true that everybody needs to grow up? I mean I know everybody needs to, I'm not stupid or retarded. And what is growing up anyway? If it's about "forgiving and forgetting" all those shits that people did to me [and by people ~ I mean all human beings, including my family]. I just don't wanna be any part of it because it's not me, it's not who I am. I don't wanna grow up if it's gonna be like that, it's just WRONG.

And thinking that I was abandoned to this "Goddamn F-ing Place", should I even consider to grow up ~ be mature ~ forgive and forget? Why should I do those things? To be honest, I don't even think I should, it was never my fault anyway.

And up until now, I haven't been anything but MATURE with capital M. I tried to forget all those sufferings from 2005 - 2007, though I honestly have to say that I can't forgive nor forget, it's just not my nature. I'm sorry but I'm just BOY who likes it ROUGH and I wanna get EVEN. And by the way, they're the ones who should kneel down and begging me for forgiveness.

FYI : I haven't forgiven nor forgotten any shits that some people did to me. Well, nothing to worry cause I will get my revenge someday and it's gonna be a dish best served cold.

But as a so-called Grown-Up Boy, I will always try to make the right decisions and I promise that I will try the smooth way to deal with 'em. But I won't promise I will be smooth when they're not going exactly as I've planned.

PS: To my dear [un]Favorite Uncle ~ how'd you like the way I treated you last time at my Dad's Funeral? Just remember, there's plenty more where that came from.

and to "some people" ~ you will get yours when the time comes.

Blonde And Blonder

I just read a blog from a very dear friend of mine [taopriestess] and I have to say again that I don't have anything against him, except his latest blog, his latest stupid "I figure out the bitchiness scale according hair color"~BLOG.

In his blog and according to his own scale, he believed that RedHead Beats Blonde when it comes to bitchiness ~ which makes me LAUGH because it's a very ridiculous statement. And I believe this dear friend of mine was living in his own -World of Reality- when he's writing that particular blog. And I give you credits for that.

C'mon...

Everybody knows, everybody knows that Blondes were the ones who made "BITCH" as the term that it is now. Simply put, blondes were the ones who made "BITCH" as the new trend ~ the trend that [almost] everybody loves to be and wants to be.

FYI ~ back then nobody wanted to be called a BITCH. And I have to be honest that I do know the term "bitch" has become less offensive since 1980's. Still...nobody liked to be called a bitch back then in the 80's. And recently [from 2000 - present] one of the popular blondes who made BITCH as the new thing was Paris Hilton [and everybody knows that she always says "bitch this and bitch that"] and it seems that BITCH has become a lot less OFFENSIVE word to say.

Suddenly? [almost] Everyone wants and loves to be a BITCH. Thanks to who? Thanks to the BLONDES.

Footnote : And when it comes to VILLAIN ~ mostly the meanest and the bitchiest is BLONDES, [for example] ~Mean Girls, Sydney White, The Parent Trap, The Devil Wears Prada, Princess Diaries, Melrose Place, and the list goes on. Redheads, Brunettes, and Black-haireds usually are just SIDE-KICKS. And everybody knows that. *evil laughs*

xoxo

You Know You Love Me

Prince of Meanest

Quote of The Day

Regarding to Agent Bawel's Platinum Chauffeur Service Presentation, a particular lecturer said something very interesting, let's just call him The Father Almighty.

The Father Almighty said ~~

"You know...that first presentation, its a very viable project, and any investor would look beyond to see the overall viability of the business; however after the presentation, i would say that its been a TURN OFF. On the other hand, the other business proposition is way ahead of it time. It was sort of flimsy..a "lacking in substance made up for in style" approach. But after listening to the presentors, I can say that it blew me. They really turned one questionable proposition into a WINNER..."

PS : that first presentation is the Chinese24.com <-- so much for having a big PROJECT !! *Laughing Out Loud*

[vintage] Nokia 8310

I have just bought a Nokia 8310 3 days ago. I know it seems weird, but I have my own reason for buying it.

When Nokia 8310 was launched for the first time, I couldn't have it though I had asked my parents for it, they said something about me being too young to have a cellphone, too careless of a child, bla bla bla ~ yada yada yada. I think it's only because it was too expensive for a child I was back then. Oh My F-ing God, I was so INNOCENTLY STUPID back then. I knew my parents could afford it but I didn't put enough efforts to fight for it.

Actually, I've planned to buy this Nokia 8310 since 2 weeks ago, I don't know why but it just pops into my head, I just have to have it. I'm so thrilled because it's like a total payback for my childhood misery at that time.

To tell the truth, this Nokia 8310 is not expensive at all, I bought it for 130 RMB. Back then it was about 3-4 millions Rupiah. I'm totally lovin' it and I don't regret not having this cellphone anymore.

[Slowly But Sure] I will have EVERYTHING that I couldn't have back then when I was still an innocent [dumb] kid.

PS : though it's VINTAGE, the Nokia 8310 still works WONDERS ~ even Dr. C asked me to buy 1 for her ~ and we totally LOVE it.

Playmate of The Day

Name : Megan Fox

Birthday : May 16, 1986

Nationality : American

Hotness Scale : 9/10

PS : This is a new topic in my blog 

       ~ inspired by Dr. A's Blog [Thank You].

Happy Birthday ~ Agent Bawel

I'm so tired ~ and I believe everyone else is tired too. Me-Myself, Mini-Mean, Lil' Bitch, and A-Bang have been wandering around La Perle ~ China Plaza ~ and some other places ~ we're looking for presents, we're buying a b'day cake [BreadTalk] ~ we're planning everything ~ we're calling everyone [I think our cellphones have run out of money]. It took us three days to get everything right

We went there by TAXI [like d'uh] ~ There's no way in hell I would take a bus or subway.

Before that we had to pick up Dr. C at StarBucks, she even had to wait for us a little bit longer because we're kinda late [or maybe I was late ~ overslept] ~ Sorry Dr. C [you always look beautiful, by the way] *Laughing Out Loud*

Of course - there's always a "little" talking about LA [or more like BIG].

Everyone [including me] has been working their asses off just for celebrating Bawel's Birthday ~ We hope he's satisfied and I totally know he is.

Happy Birthday Agent Bawel ~ Wish You All The Best ~ Wish You Happiness And Love In Whatever You May Do

PS : We wish that Queen Bitch & Mother Fucking Princess were here with us ~~ We're so INCOMPLETE without them ~~ !!

The Mummy 3: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor

OMG! ~~ I know I know ~ everyone has been telling me that this movie SUCK ~ but I didn't expect it would suck that much. Personally, I think the first 30 minutes was OK, but the rest of the minutes was just Plain Boring. And too much unnecessary stuff ~~

the downside :

1. Evelyn wasn't played by Rachel Weisz [I won't blame her for not taking this part, cuz the mummy 3 just plain suck]

2. Evelyn & Rick's son [Alex] ~ how old is he ??

3. Emperor Han ~ Jet Li's worst character ever ~ clearly this movie was just trying to have a big showdown between supposedly "Brendan Fraser VS Jet Li"

4. Michelle Yeoh ~ I'm totally disappointed with her character here ~ same from above, her worst character ever

5. That "Imhotep" club ~~

the upside :

1. Brendan Fraser is still a GREAT actor : physically & mentally

2. I could see Yeti in the big screen for the first time

3. Brendan Fraser's NICE quote "Here We Go Again!"

PS : the movie SUCK and I watched with a Chinese Language Dubbing ~ and it's even WORSE

Quote of The Day

September, 12th 2008 ~ it's the day of Business Plan Final Presentation. Both for Platinum Chauffeur Service and Chinese24.com [Rose's Team ~ for everyone who knows what I'm talking about]. It's really surprising that I'm gonna write Quotes of The Day because I didn't expect anything to be funny or worthy to write about for this particular time. But I guess things just turned quite differently from what I've expected. The Chinese24.com team have finished their thingy and started asking whether the people have questions or not.

Mei Gui Jie : Any questions ? ....*looking at one particular Lecturer*..... Ja** ??

Raffles Yeye : ..... *surprised*....... *speechless*

Given their history, it's not weird to find everyone was funnily smiling and I was laughing out loud inside my mind.

All the presentations was finished presented. Everyone from both groups have done their best. Agent Bawel and Si Dedek decided to have dinner with us : Prince of Meanest, Lil'Bitch, and Mbah Dukun. In the middle of whatsoever conversation ~~~

Mbah Dukun : .... *very loud*... LA's gonna PASS !!

Everyone : *surprised & speechless*....

Prince of Meanest : *thought that somebody had shot me right into my head* ...What ??

PS : Platinum Chauffeur Service Totally Won Over Chinese24.com ~ Platinum MENANG TELAK ~ Chinese 24.com KALAH TELAK !! *Raja Iblis' Evil Laugh*

Dream Definition

This morning I just had a very strange dream, not really strange compared to the LA dream. I have to say that I know this particular dream means something and I don't need to ask Mbah Dukun cuz I've found the defintions myself ~ and to be honest, I'm quite terrified because in some ways, it could be the truth that I've ignored all this time.

I'm gonna list all the topics in this dream instead of writing it as a paragraph, it's easier this way, at least to me, and here it goes : [the DREAM]

1. I was a murderer [or assasin] and I used NEEDLE as my killing weapon and I wasn't the only one who killed people in the dream.

2. I killed the BOSS [the one person I should kill] by thrusting the needle into the back side of his neck.

3. I saw the BOSS' subordinates using gun and I tried to escape and kill the subordinates ~ but it didn't work, there are too many of them. Then they shot me.

4. But I didn't know why I couldn't get killed, I suddenly became an immortal.

The important notes :

1. *Murderer / Assasin means ~ you're putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking. This could also mean an end to an addiction. Alternatively, you may have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at others.

*Witness a murder indicates ~ deep-seated anger towards somebody. Consider how the victim represents aspects of yourself that you want to eliminate.

2. Needle indicates that ~ you need to mend some relationship or situation that has gotten out of hand or driven to the extreme. A needle is also symbolic of some emotional or physical pain.

3. *Gun symbolizes ~ aggression, anger, and potential danger. You may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence.

*Someone is shooting you with a gun suggests that ~ you're experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may feel victimized in some situation.

4. Immortal represents longevity, continuity, or fearlessness. You feel that you are better than others. Alternatively, it signifies reluctance in starting over or in taking a new direction. You fear change.

Footnote : dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.

I guess I know the reason why I had this dream, it's because yesterday I had an argument with my eldest brother regarding "Study In America" ~ I wanted my AMERICA and he thought that it might be better for me to study master in other places : such as China [again]. I have to be honest that it breaks ME when he said that ~ How Dare You Said That ??!!!

I'm so devastated ~~ To think that there might be another chance for me studying in USA? I'm so STUPID ~ maybe I should just kill myself to stop my sufferings.

\\ It's Britney, Bitch // ~The Princess of Pop~ is [BACK] !!!

Oops!... She did it AGAIN. HA!! I knew it, I knew she could make it, I knew she'd be back, wanna know why? Because she's [the fucking] Britney Spears.

Britney won 3 awards at the VMA'08 that night. She swept all the awards for every nomination that she's nominated in :

1. Best Female Video

2. Best Pop Video

3. Video of The Year

Congratz, Brit!! ~ [After 16 nominations] You totally deserved those awards because you're always AMAZING. Though you had a big meltdown the previous two years, you've proven that you're STRONGER than that [than ever]. Have you noticed that everyone was standing up and clapping everytime you're on stage that night? Everyone in this world is waiting for you BIG COMEBACK and I know you won't disappoint us.

And as I [all of us] always have expected from Britney Jean Spears, every time she gets an award she always stays humble about it. The inspirational speech :

"I'm speechless. Oh, my goodness, thank you! This is an honor! I first wanna thank God first and foremost for just blessing me like this. My beautiful family, my two beautiful boys for inspiring me everyday and my FANS, this is for you. Thank you so much."

I'm so honored that she thanked her FANS ~ she knows FANS are important !! We LOVE you, Britney !!

[Try to beat that, X'tina !!?? Oh No, you can't ~ can ya' ??!!]

PS : And YES, that's Paris Hilton posing with Britney, I guess they're in -good terms- now

Song of The Day

Keeps Gettin' Better

Vocal : Christina Aguilera

Album : Keeps Gettin' Better - A Decade of Hits

Genre : Pop

Description ~

It looks like that the bitch X'tina has gone back to her roots, the POP music. Well, I think this latest single is so much better than "Ain't No Other Man" and I have to say that I'm totally in LOVE with it. This is the first single [since "Genie In A Bottle"] that I instantly like the first time I listen to it. "Keeps Gettin' Better" is a very catchy song with strong electro-pop feeling in it and more importantly, Christina has taken off her "Baby Jane" persona - which I don't like [no offense to her fans] ~ I think her musics are still great though. And though I hate to say this [partly because I'm a big fan of Britney Spears], but it's just like the title of the song ~ Christina Aguilera Keeps Gettin' Better. She may not be the Princess of Pop [that's Britney] but I personally think Christina Aguilera is the Princess of Music.

So What

Vocal : P!nk

Album : Funhouse

Genre : Pop/Rock

Description ~

NaNaNaNaNa, I LOVE P!NK. This song is F-ing AWESOME and I think it's even GREATER than "Who Knew" and I'm personally in love with that song. I LOVE P!NK when she sings Pop/Rock songs and doing a Pop/Rock album, this genre suits her better [I never really like the R&B - "Can't Take Me Home" era of her, except "Most Girls"]. This "So What" has a very strong ROCK~catchy feeling and I feel that I can relate to the song in a weird way. I personally love this line ~ lyric "So ~ So What? I'm Still A Rock Star".

LV ~ Labels or loVe ?? \\ [Louis Vuitton] //

Brand : Louis Vuitton

Name : Utah - 6 Cards and Bill Holder

Price : just take a look at www.louisvuitton.com ~ it's worth every single penny

September, 4th 2008 ~ at 3pm, my eldest brother arrived in Guangzhou. I have been waiting for him for about 1 month, I wasn't only waiting for him, but I was waiting for something else too.

I was waiting for my 19th B'day present + my XboX 360 [I left it in Jakarta because my luggage was overload at the time]. But my brother didn't bring my XboX 360, he didn't bring any luggage with him. Fortunately, he brought that B'day present of mine or else I would go BERSERK.

With this LV wallet in my possession, I proudly announce that I have officially advanced to the next level.

Like what Mother-Fucking Princess says "Naik Level !!"

PS : Thank You, Big Bro ~~

Quote of The Day

First of all, I didn't plan to write any blog for today. But 5-10 minutes ago, while I was chatting to a particular person whom I thought was a friend of mine, I decided to have a quote for today.

The reason I chatted with this friend of mine in MSN was because he put a message as a display for his MSN ~ his message was "I am belong to here", and I thought for a while ago that this message might be written with false grammar. I thought it's supposed to be "I belong here", but who am I to judge ? I merely think that this friend of mine is like my own big-brother, that's why I messaged him in the first place, to correct the sentence. Apparently, he wasn't in front of his computer, I didn't know it was my friend's friend and that friend of his said to me :

[let's pretend that this friend of mine is called "Alex"]

Unknown Friend : I am don't alex

Prince of Meanest : ...... ?? *sigh*

I guess he meant to type "I am not Alex" and I'm so AMAZED by this person, stupidly amazed. This is 2008, I feel that most of the people who live on Earth know how to speak English properly, maybe not with the perfect grammar. I have to say that I think my grammar is still on average-level but "I am don't alex" ?? <-- It's totally wrong even for me. Sometimes, even I feel repulsed by the fact that people's grammar can be so wrong.

But I think we should give the person some credits for trying. And I'm not the one who judge people but I believe [some-] everyone in this world deserves a second chance.

Quote of The Day

As everyone knows I love Gossip Girl and I think it's one the best TV-Series there is. About a while ago, I just watched the first episode of the second season of Gossip Girl. I have to say that it's wonderful [just like the name of the episode "Summer Kind of Wonderful]. It's amazing to watch GG and seeing Queen B [again ~ she's amazing ~ I love her], it's totally AWESOME. And after 40-about minutes watching GG's new episode, I have found my favorite Quotes for today :

"You know what they say, a man is a good thing to come home for, but even a better thing to come home with"

"Ain't karma a bitch? We know Blair Waldorf is"

By : Gossip Girl

"Aa...Wha...? Are you crazy? A hot lifeguard is like a KLEENEX, use once and throw away, you couldn't ask for a better rebound"

"The only thing lamer than dating Dan Humphrey is Mourning Dan Humphrey"

"I wasn't aware that robots got jealous, did they update your software while I was away?"

"I will fight until my Last Dying Breath because any resemblance to you is something I will hate about myself"

By : Blair Waldorf

"Am I? Or are you just too interested in yourself to get to know me?"

By : James / Marcus Beaton / Blair Waldorf's Former Fake British-Boyfriend

"Spotted! Serena and Nate in a massive display of P.D.A ~ and that's exactly what Dan Humphrey is... Pretty Damn Angry"

"You ain't seen nothin' yet ~"

By : Gossip Girl

xoxo ~

I Had A Dream That I Thought I Would Never [dream] About ~ in my whole life

Well, it's kinda difficult for me to say it even typing it because there's a possibility this writing can never be deleted. But I've promised to myself the moment I woke up that I had to write about this dream. Ok ~ I dreamed about... *sound of drums ~ deng dereng deng* ...... LA !!

Uh huh, I know !! For the first time in my life and for the first time in everyone who knows about our history, I dreamed about LA. If there's any consolation, it wasn't a sex dream [Thank God] or anything sexually arousing [Jesus, Marie, and Joseph].

This dream is a kinda long - continuous one. I dreamed that I was back in high school and my Chauffeur was sick or whatsoever, he's just not there to drive me. Therefore, I chose the 2nd option, I went to my eldest brother's house, my second brother was there, having a breakfast~kind of. Then I asked my second brother [because he's the closest thing that I saw] whether he could drive me or not and he jokingly said that he couldn't because he's lazy and he told me that I should have known how to drive anyway. And I was like "whatever" -> I went to my eldest brother and apparently he already prepared motorcycle [yeah, if it's morning, my eldest brother kinda lazy driving a car]. Well, the important thing in that dream was I could go to school.

Before I went with my eldest brother, his wife asked me whether I wanted a V or not, I rejected the V cause I was afraid that's gonna delay my "American Dream" [if you know what I mean] ~ and the V stands for Toyota Vios ~ YES, it's cheap and YES, it's Britney Spears' ads ~ and she thought I might catch the bait, HeLLo !! I'm smarter than that [like d'uh].

I was on the passenger side of the motorcycle [the back seat]. As my brother went driving the motorcycle, I met two friends of mine that I chose to ignore because I was still sleepy, I pretended I didn't see them, it wasn't that important anyway and I didn't think they would mind.

And out of sight ~ out of nothing. I drove-pass LA !! ~ In my dream, LA's house in Jakarta was near my house and apparently we're even in the same damn "MK", we're just different in blocks, but still very close. LA was wearing a white sweater, blue jeans, and he's bringing his worn-out bag [if you know what I mean] ~ and in my dream, his HAIR [trust me] was ~ Longer, Bigger, Dirtier, and he's still using the "center-pony-tail" hair-style [I don't know what it's called, I named it myself, forgive me if there's any mistake]. When I drove-pass him, he didn't see me but I did see him [as I was shocked thinking "How in Earth ?"], I decided not to wave my hand cuz I didn't think he would see me either. He didn't notice me because he was too busy looking at himself in the mirror [it was the window-mirror of his house] and he was too busy taking care of his hair - kalo istilah Bahasa Indonesia "nyisir2 + nyasak rambut" [I'm not being MEAN and it's not a joke].

And the most AMAZING thing is that the dream was so vivid, everything about LA was so vivid, I could remember every single bit. And I'm still wondering why I had that dream because it's totally weird.

The rest of the dream is that I arrived in my high school - studying Geography [strangely, with my former junior high school-teacher, YES it's my former junior high- teacher and I won't mention name]. She's being MEAN and I just had to snap at her, we ended up arguing but I can't remember the whole thing, not that it's important or anything but I didn't think I lose to her, which is GOOD.

That's all of it !! and I don't think everyone feels that the dream as weirdly interesting as I feel. But believe me, it's already on top my -I can't believe it- List.

BFF [turn] Frienemies [turn] BFF [again]

My blog about a particular friend of mine "taopriestess" had caused a drama for a moment. I didn't expect to turn out like that, but it was because my dear friend Minako read my blog and texted taopriestess and went RAMPAGE for the sake of everyone. Truly grateful to have a friend like you, Minako. In this darkness, I can barely see my true friends.

Actually, I didn't expect taopriestess to apologize to me whatsoever, but he did and I have to admit I'm kinda relieved for that. Well, for the very fact that it is a justification that I was never WRONG. But, seriously, as long as I know what he means, there's no need for apology nor forgiveness. I just want to tell myself and everyone who reads my blog that I have never intended that particular blog to cause such a drama and I never wanted to argue nor fight with my dear friends. I want to justify that this whole thing is a misunderstanding. And I want everyone to know that I always and I will always be in good terms with my dear friends. I'm not like Paris & Nicole -> BFF turned Frienemies turned BFF again. I'm so NOT like that ~ but I never say that I couldn't be.

I just read my friend's blog taopriestess and I saw his new tattoo. That freaking tattoo is huge and it's kinda amazed me that he got that. The tattoo is lovely, cool, whatever it's just good. I'm happy as long as he's happy.

PS : My Eldest Brother is coming to GZ this September, 4th 2008 - I just can't imagine all the troubles that I have to go through [the family business & translation thingy] but I do believe something good will happen too.

......and I'm broke....

Fly Away

....I wanna fly away from here....

I wanna be where I wanna be.......should be.....

I wanna have a peace inside me................

.............I wanna step on my Dream Land.....

.....When will I reach that One True Place ......

.....Please STOP this torturing because I can't take it anymore.....