Dream Definition

This morning I just had a very strange dream, not really strange compared to the LA dream. I have to say that I know this particular dream means something and I don't need to ask Mbah Dukun cuz I've found the defintions myself ~ and to be honest, I'm quite terrified because in some ways, it could be the truth that I've ignored all this time.

I'm gonna list all the topics in this dream instead of writing it as a paragraph, it's easier this way, at least to me, and here it goes : [the DREAM]

1. I was a murderer [or assasin] and I used NEEDLE as my killing weapon and I wasn't the only one who killed people in the dream.

2. I killed the BOSS [the one person I should kill] by thrusting the needle into the back side of his neck.

3. I saw the BOSS' subordinates using gun and I tried to escape and kill the subordinates ~ but it didn't work, there are too many of them. Then they shot me.

4. But I didn't know why I couldn't get killed, I suddenly became an immortal.

The important notes :

1. *Murderer / Assasin means ~ you're putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking. This could also mean an end to an addiction. Alternatively, you may have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at others.

*Witness a murder indicates ~ deep-seated anger towards somebody. Consider how the victim represents aspects of yourself that you want to eliminate.

2. Needle indicates that ~ you need to mend some relationship or situation that has gotten out of hand or driven to the extreme. A needle is also symbolic of some emotional or physical pain.

3. *Gun symbolizes ~ aggression, anger, and potential danger. You may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence.

*Someone is shooting you with a gun suggests that ~ you're experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may feel victimized in some situation.

4. Immortal represents longevity, continuity, or fearlessness. You feel that you are better than others. Alternatively, it signifies reluctance in starting over or in taking a new direction. You fear change.

Footnote : dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.

I guess I know the reason why I had this dream, it's because yesterday I had an argument with my eldest brother regarding "Study In America" ~ I wanted my AMERICA and he thought that it might be better for me to study master in other places : such as China [again]. I have to be honest that it breaks ME when he said that ~ How Dare You Said That ??!!!

I'm so devastated ~~ To think that there might be another chance for me studying in USA? I'm so STUPID ~ maybe I should just kill myself to stop my sufferings.