I'm going to talk about my previous blog of "My Happy Ending" because 2 hours ago I've decided to delete that particular blog for good. I don't know why I deleted it but I believe that the existence of that blog is too much for me. And I can't handle anything right now and I certainly can't handle the buzz and press about that blog. I've written that blog on 31st March 2009 ~ and I've always been a private person and I think the reason I deleted it solely because I'm afraid I've given that problem too much spotlights. Honestly, I'm scared of the unexpected outcomes.
It got me thinking that I need to solve this matter myself first. I do admit I haven't got over it but I will eventually. And in that moment of time I just want to keep it to myself and try to reason with everything though sometimes certain things can be quite unreasonable but it won't stop me from doing what I have to do with my life.
And I believe writing a blog about it won't solve the problem because I believe it only makes the problem even worse, making it a public consumption. And I'm so not ready for other people's questions and statements. It's not that I'm not grateful for people's opinions but for this particular case, I just need my own space and hopefully everyone can understand.
Though I have to admit that blog was quite shocking, even for me [I'm totally sorry for anyone who haven't read it ~ and I'm grateful for anyone who have read it]. This problem has become a little too much for me and has affected even my hedonist way of life and seeing that blog does hurt me a bit but I know I'll survive.
I'm listening to Lady GaGa's [Poker Face] because that song kinda puts me in ease and I totally can relate to its lyric.
PS: Damn!!... I forgot to save that blog before I deleted it ~
Stupid me =]
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