From [was never] Perfect To Worse

What a night to start my assignment - my life was never PERFECT now it keeps gettin' WORSE and the funny thing is I didn't do it on purpose ~ I thought I was trying to help but apparently I was helping the wrong person.

So it started when I got a message from that "wrong person" ~ let's call him "son of a bitch". The son of a bitch messaged me that he needed my help ~ not that I ever wanted to help him. He said that he needed my help and anyone must not know about this "help" and he even said that it's because I'm close to my "particular friend" ~ in the end of the 1st message "mau apa nga kira2 elu nolongin gw?"

and I replied the 1st message like this :

"heh ? of course lah ~ if i could help i would - blom ditolong jgn thx dolo lar --- gw jd ga enak" <-- I thought I was doing my "particular friend" a favor - I seriously THOUGHT that, it was never about him, it's always about helping one of my best friend ~ and I guess I was so wrong [I'll get to that part]. And the second message that was written by Son of A Bitch : "tapi tolong, tolong.. even anyone shouldnt know about the favor im asking you.. you're a man of his word kan? gw pengen bunuh diri, kemaren usaha gw gagal pas gw lagi dicentro ngejatohin diri ditangga teguling2.. gimana dia sekarang? gw barusan udahan ama dia baru2 ini, kemarin ini hari kamis gw ribut besar ama dia, pas ditelfon gw kalap dan gw emosi sesaat yang amat teramat childish, gw delete dia dari fb & fs gw, dan gw bener2 menyesal sekali telah ngelakuin itu.. gwpusing.. gw musti gimana. gw asli pengen mati dari kemarin ini bawaannya mikir mulu nga henti.. udah 2hari belum tidur sampe detik ini.. gimana dia masih ada pegi2 bareng nga lu ama dia kemarin2 ini?gw mohon, jangan sampe siapapun tahu tentang hal yang kita bahas ini.. tolong banget.. thank you..oia ada baiknya itu fren rikues dari gw elu ignore aja daripada ada yang tau.. thanks.." Then I replied it from my perspective - from what I have seen, I won't show it here cuz it's not really necessary. Things got really intense from there - from asking how that "particular friend" of mine - to phone number - and I swear to GOD I didn't want to give son of a bitch my "particular friend"'s phone number ~ you can call me amateur but that "son of a bitch" has a very superb acting skill - I don't remember what he said [because there's a lot of it] but he did make me saying "So, you're asking for my "particular friend"'s phone number?" ~ and what an ASS !! he rejected at first - I should've known better - I was tricked [and here I thought I was the meanest and the most cunning person on the Planet Earth] - but then he's like whining about his "problems" and he kept sobbing and blabbering [I swear I thought I was gonna die listening to him] ~ and then he just like said it to me "would you mind to give the "particular friend"'s phone number?" and GOD what a FOOL I WAS !! ~ I FucKING FELL FOR IT !! I KNOW !! I KNOW !! I KNOW I was such a weakling !! How could I ever fall for that ?? I KNOW I was the one to blame ~ it's my FUCKING FAULT !! But I have made it clear with my "particular friend" that I have no ill-intentions and I thought I was doing "particular friend" a favor ~ and I guess I was wrong ~ and my action is biting me on the ass at the moment 1. I got myself a trouble 2. I think my "particular friend" is sad because of what I did 3. I heard that Queen Bitch is pissed off because of what I did 4. I haven't even started on my assignment yet 5. I got nobody to blame but me PS : ~ I should've asked my "particular friend" first before I gave son of a bitch the phone number - I am so SORRY ~ I swear I've told son of a bitch MANY TIMES that I didn't want to get involved in this problem but he kept dragging me - calling me - he has a way with persuasion that I have to admit that he's GREATER than me ~ I swear to GOD that I told him not to call me again MANY TIMES ~ I swear to GOD I was defending and helping my "particular friend" or I thought I was ~ I thought I was doing my friend a favor apparently I was digging my own grave ~ Compassion is something that I have to get rid of

I am so sorry for what I did and I'm apologizing to everyone who has been hurt because of what I did and I am aware that my actions have caused a lot of people ~ hurting them but I swear I have never had any ill-intentions to those everyone. I am sorry and even though I know I might be forgiven ~ this particular tragedy will never be forgotten no matter how hard I try ~ I just hope that myself and anyone who's reading this can learn from my mistake.